I've taken things for granted.

                 I've taken mom for granted. I'm so comfortable that she's always there and she'll never leave our side. Little did i know she has a cancer. We were too young for the details to know, that's what they said. So until now i don't know the whole story, there are still pieces that are missing. I never asked because what gives? No one has time to share it to us. For all i know, me and my brothers suffered inside. It creates a hole in our hearts and that changed us. No one understands us or me. No one even ask the perfect question. All the questions were general. What is your problem? What is wrong? Blah blah blah. I have a lot of problem and everything's wrong. That's all.

                 Now, i have to see life without mom. Coz that's what life is. Life sucks. It lets you feel the happiness then suffer afterwards. Now i have to be like this. To let them feel that i'm an independent person. To let them know that i'm fine even if i'm crying inside. I wish mom was here. She'll understand me even if i'm wrong. She'll let me understand what are the things that i should not take things for granted. I wish she was here to let them understand that what they're doing or going to do is changing me into something.