I've taken things for granted.

                 I've taken mom for granted. I'm so comfortable that she's always there and she'll never leave our side. Little did i know she has a cancer. We were too young for the details to know, that's what they said. So until now i don't know the whole story, there are still pieces that are missing. I never asked because what gives? No one has time to share it to us. For all i know, me and my brothers suffered inside. It creates a hole in our hearts and that changed us. No one understands us or me. No one even ask the perfect question. All the questions were general. What is your problem? What is wrong? Blah blah blah. I have a lot of problem and everything's wrong. That's all.

                 Now, i have to see life without mom. Coz that's what life is. Life sucks. It lets you feel the happiness then suffer afterwards. Now i have to be like this. To let them feel that i'm an independent person. To let them know that i'm fine even if i'm crying inside. I wish mom was here. She'll understand me even if i'm wrong. She'll let me understand what are the things that i should not take things for granted. I wish she was here to let them understand that what they're doing or going to do is changing me into something.

Do you want to see life without me? Literally?

Hindi magiging tama ang paguutak ng tao kung hindi ito binibigyan ng pagasa para magbago.

What I found in a site-i-can't-tell & someone's blog :>

After a breakup. 

He was a major part of your life; of course you’ll miss him; it’s perfectly normal. It’s like getting a tooth pulled out; after the dentist pulls it, you’re relieved. But how many times do you run your tongue over the spot where it once was ? Probably a hundred times a day. Just because it was hurting you, doesn’t mean you don’t notice it. It leaves a gap, and sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It’s going to take a while, but it always takes some time. Should you have kept the tooth? No, because it was causing you pain. Pulling the tooth was the right decision, but it’s still going to hurt.

Summer Class.

Yes i'm having summer class and it'll start tomorrow :">
I'm so excited i'll be going to school again. :)
`nuff said.

Babies.

So yeah, it's so obvious in my title that it's about babies :))
One thing that i'll just say, all the pain in your back, the sleepless nights, it's all worth it. Coz seeing the baby that you love smile right back at you, in a minute or so, you know know it's okay to go through this crap. :)

Publicity.

Yes, it's all on public. This blog is public. Because there are only few people i know that uses this site. So yeah, i have to be extra careful on what i post. People can be too prejudiced or narrow-minded to someone's blog. Anyway, it doesn't matter. This is my blog and it will be as it is. I don't take life that seriously. I'm just a teenager and young like what my Tita said. I make mistakes and i learn from it. The posts that will be here? It happened already so you can't do anything about it. You can all nag, or give advice, or take it seriously on your own but it's not my problem anymore. I did it, it's done. PERIOD. :)

Girls Language.

When I give up, tell me you won't let go. :)

But I know that that won't happen. Coz people aren't the way you wanted them to be. They chose to let you go because they don't wanna force you. But what if that's how they'll know if they really mean so much to you. That they have to let go so they would know if you really love them. Because for all those times that you were together, you didn't do anything to prove them that you love them. Well, that sucks. People misunderstood each other. Even in the actions we made. That's life. :)