Earth itself is Hell.

            I don't know, but this is just an opinion.

        They say that in Heaven we wouldn't feel any pain, there will be no Greed, Lust or any of the deadly sins. We'll just be satisfied. They say that in Hell, you'll feel all kinds of pain. All of us or some of us will suffer when we're in Hell. We'll be with Lucifer, Satan & all the other evil. But you know what, those things are some verse in the bible. They say that Hell is a bad place to live in and there are lots of evil spirits who stays there while in Heaven you'll be with the Archangels and God and Jesus and you will feel no pain.

        But you know what? There really is no Hell, because Earth itself is. You know why? It's because we feel pain here on Earth. We suffer, we cry, we get sad. Every one of us has the seven deadly sin. So Lucifer and Satan lives among us. Some people say that Lucifer is a fallen angel because he betrayed God and went down to Earth and be the right hand of Satan. You know why he went to Earth? He got jealous, every angel got jealous that's why they went down and called fallen angels. They went down because God puts more attention to the humans more than the angels. That they just follow the rules and have to obey it. Lucifer and the others doesn't want that. He also wants to be free like the humans. Though he doesn't want what God do, to destroy what God himself made because of one mistake. That seems unfair. Lucifer also wants the human beings to gain knowledge and to know what is happening to Earth and the other things. Satan wants us to have a choice, not to obey things even if it will satisfy us. Like what Eve did, she ate the fruit of knowledge because she made a choice, to eat it and to know what is happening. To know what to feel for her own self. That's why every now and then people have their choices, their own decision like what the "devils" want to happen. Lucifer and Satan isn't that bad, because they gave us a chance to feel, to be happy in our own way. He wants us to love and fall apart, to get our hearts broken and to pick it up, to learn from our mistakes.

          If the bible says that you are not allowed to sing because it's the work of "evil" and that's what it teaches us, then why do church choirs and any other people sing? In the bible it says that you are not allowed to worship idol but how do people know that Jesus is white or has a white complexion when in where he lives, all of the people there look like an Arab or has a dark complexion? The priests preach that it is God's will why all of the destruction happens or why all things happen, but what is God's will? Does anyone know what it is?

         All of these questions kept me hanging. 

It never occur to me to think what will happen to me in the future when my friends or anyone asks me. I mean, i dunno. I just go with the flow to everything that comes my way. It's that simple. :) Though I do have plans for my future, i just don't know why i can't tell it to some persons who asks about it. Anyway, life goes on and i accept everything in my life. People go in and out of my life and that's just that. I can't force them to stay. Anyone who goes in my life? I keep them, and it's up to them if they want to leave or not. If they want to screw things up or be happy with me. That's me, i put the decision in the person, i don't decide. I just tell them "it's up to you because whatever you want i'm fine with that." But you know what i really want? All of them people? I want them to stay in my life and just be the same. :)

"Everyone deserves someone or something better."

 But what if that better isn't what you wanted but still you needed it. Do you still deserve it? Sometimes it's not just you that make things complicated. It's the environment around you. The world isn't always with you, it doesn't go always to what you wanted and you just got to accept that fact. Some people would try to let you down, some would try to break your heart over and over again. But trust me, there will always be that one person who can make you happy, whom you can be your own self, who can understand you better than anyone else. Either it's a new one coming into your life or someone who has been with you all along. :)

"Ang pinakamalaking pagsisisihan mo sa buhay ay yung hindi mo nasabi yung dapat mong sabihin kasi naduwag ka."

-- Naduwag nga ako pero hindi mo naman ako nakuhang ipaglaban. Mas mabuti nga siguro na nakikita ko na hindi ka na kagaya ng dati para magkaroon ako ng dahilan na kalimutan ka na talaga. Mas oonti ang sakit na nararamdaman ko kung ganoon lang.